Orait everybody,I'm moving~

Here's my new home..

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I am almost graduate from my bachelor degree...and its time to move forward for a new chapter of my life.The work life.

Lately, I have been suffering of making decision to choose to listen to my father or to myself.Which should I pick? The father's always said "they eat salt more then you do", yes indeed,they are more experience in life.Myself, I want to go with my own decision, I want to be independent, I dont want anybody to tell me what to do for my own life.

What should I do,what should I do.

If I disobeyed my father will,I am a bad daughter. If I miss out the chances, I will be regret for life.

I am not experience enough, I dunno what the world are.What if my father words are right? What if my point are correct?

I want to search for job myself,pick my own choice.But my father want me to work with the goverment,to work with big companies,so that he can proudly tell anybody that his children are good too. I want to join my cousin, but daddy ego is big, he is afraid of suffering shamefulness. I really want to join my cousin, but I cannot sure that the job really bring benefit to me.

What should I do now.....................What should I.

*Pictures arrange accordance to times,year 2003 to 2007.

Looking back all my pictures to see how far have I change for the past 5 years.Nothing much change beside the hair style hehe..but I do look a bit more matured and feminine and sexy too..hahaha.This is just for fun.

I've just finished reading the Reader Digest's issue of December 2007 - LOUD ASIA!How the Noise Epidemic Affects you.
I forgive my dad for talking so loud in public,forgive my friends for talking so loud in our gathering,forgive myself for laughing so loud,forgive my family for the shouting in the house,forgive my neighbors for the full blast music player and karaoke.
All comes with a reason.Our ears are immune with LOUD NOISE,because we are ASIAN!hahaha..happy new year!

But before I'm continuing my work..just let me show some of my pwetty pwetty pictures taken at my friends hari raya open house.





With Bai



With Rosalynda



With Julia



With Dolly Baobei



With Jacynthea James Gatidis..I just like to write your name in full hahaha

Life has been very busy lately,for the past 5 days all I did was sitting in front the computer from 8 in the morning till 12 midnite,working on my home-base part time job offered by my cousin Juliana.
I had done everything I could but the outcome is just suck,even myself wont accept this junk.I'm expecting to re-do it which,maybe,will take me another 5 days to complete..urgh.
I'm so mad of myself,is this the only ability I can offer?Damnit.I was hoping to show my abilities,my effort to them,but why am I always so confident of myself!?This is what happen when I'm too confident!I always end up lose!ARGHHHH~~
I'm not complaining about the job,but I'm complaining about this lousy me.I want to do it right,I want it to be complete and organize,I want it to be perfect!
This not gonna get me down!OK go back to work~

What Have I Done in the past…

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Half and hour:
Helping my aunt with her hair dye,and chasing the dogs around the house.

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3 Hours:
Preparing all the indgredients for the cucumber pickle for tonight dinner, including chopping the red onion and garlic.Plus cooking rice and pick up all the dried clothes.Aduii macam mamak mamak pula saya ni!I'm qualified as a wife,anybody??I'm still available.Hahaha.



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3 Days:
Wednesday,Wednesday,What did I do on Wednesday.Woke up early in the morning sending my mom and sis to work and school.I dont do this normally,mom usually drive to work and sending my sis to school,her car is going for service today,so I was responsible to send them.It was quite interesting alone with my mom in the car,we talk and laugh alot about everything that happen lately,and she share her plan for our future-coming-soon-new-home decoration,she said she going to do it with a theme,maybe in English or Balinese style.She also complaining about my dad being too sensitive,tee hee hee..this is the typical wife la kan,complaint about her husband.


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3 weeks:
Still unsatisfied with my failed subject,I still believe that it was not my problem,It was the Kelana Jaya lecturer who was wrong. Too confident about my effort.This is what happen when I'm too confident---FAILED. Yeah,I suppose I need to accept the reality,maybe I am weak in this subject.So I accept it with open heart.AND no more FAILED subject for the next and next and next exam!I want to PASS my Financial management!
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3 months:

Just finish my short semester exam,and the started of my holidays. I have planned my holidays before,I want to sleep in the afternoon,I want to wake up late,I want to play the PS games whole day,staring on the computer for online games,awake till midnite reading novels and watched movies and dramas.Only few of it happen,after the holidays start all the mood just gone.

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12 months:
Trip to Johore Bharu for my brother's graduation days.Have been looking forward for this day for many many months,it was my second time travelling on plane after the year when I was 9,its quite a time.Went to KL and Genting Highland too.Not that like the environment of busy KL but fall in love to breezy Genting.

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3 years:

Failed my STPM and end up stuck in Sabah. Was hoping to study in the West Malaysia like others of my mates.I should have pick UTAR instead of lousy UNITAR.Fees are higher than other private university and yet facilities is the poorest.Envy on all my ex-schoolmates that happen to study overseas,remember I use to stare on their Friendster pictures and fantasying myself in the picture,what an unmatured human I am.hahaha.

I have this


This too


And this


to be pick.Hehehe..
Dad said pick the second one which is the W850i as same as Cynthea's.But,since Cynthea already have it and its too big to fit in a pocket,so I didnt pick that.

I personaly want the first one,the W880i.It has all the best function,but it cost a little bit pricey then the rest.I dont want to burden my mom,altho dad keep pushing me to pick the best one,coz shes the one who going to pay for it,jahat kan my dad hahaha.

I respect my mom choice,she recommend me the W610i since the beginning.And I like it also,I dont want to ask for more,for her to get me a new phone is already enough to be thanks.Today she going to fax the order,hopefully everything going just fine and I will get my brand new W610i in less or more then 4 weeks! AND I WANT TO TAYANG TO TOLOP,THATS THE REAL POINT!!!!MWAHAHHAHAHAHA.

I cannot believe I got fail in my Financial Management! I knew that I didnt do really well in my paper but I am sure that I'm not that worst to get a Fail! This is not suppose to happennnnnnnn!!!!

As I sliding my old notes makin I rasa I'm not suppose to fail! Apa la this UNITAR ni!! Jaga la ni Course Leader,if you gave me the wrong mark,your life will be miserable!Better you realise before I curse you!!!!! Arghhhhhhh!
I really cannot believe it!
I HATE ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!

CHANGE MY MARK NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so wanted to re-open my paper,but I'm not dare to ask my dad..haihhhhhhh

But I knew it was real.

I was taking my shower in my aunt room because there was a renovation in our toilet.After I finish my wash,I was going to put my clothes on,but in the meantime I was turning my body to the right side to pick my shirt.

And it happen, a strong pain on the left side of my chest, suddenly I felt very weak and I hear buzzing sound and my left arm became numb.Then I felt dizzines,I close my eyes and I hold the window,because I started to lose my balance,I thought I'm going to faint.I was strong,I couldnt believe that I was that strong,I laid myself on the wall, and I begin to do continues breathing , I told myself I am not going to faint here naked, beside there is nobody around outside the toilet,my aunt and cousin was out for vacation.

Then the pain begin to reduces and I can slightly move my arm,not even think any much,I put my clothes on slowly using my right hand,but my body still shivering and I still felt dizzy until now.

The continues breathing really help much or else I maybe fainted in the toilet.The question is,am I having a mild heart attack? That was scary,this is the first time I had such pain.

Any ideas to help me earn money before next Wednesday?Without asking both of my parents.RM20 is enough, what can I do to earn this much?

I wanna watch movie and hang out with my friends on next Wednesday,which we've already plan the week before.I was not sure wether I can afford to join them,since I'm having my holidays now,so no allowance from daddy.
I've already asked him for RM 25 last week, so I guess to ask for money for the second time will harder enough.

Its not that we are poor to spend a little money, but I think is because he dont want us to waste money before starting to earn, he has started to control ours(siblings) money spending since we were young, so we never ask for more. When I think of the fees that he spended in me all through the years, it even made me harder to ask for more and sometimes felt guilty of blaming him for not giving us a fair amount of allowance.

Indeed, our life before is rather harder then nowadays. After my dad takeover my grandpa room rental business and my mom got promoted to higher positon in her job ,life getting better and better.We even change the old truck to a nicer 4wd family car, and we go vacations too!haha.The harder days has past, but I appreciate the experience, which madee me understand that finding money is not easy,and I learned to control my finance.

So the point is, just because I wanted to spend for a day out, I got myself a one day job today! I'm a car washer!I washed my dad's car,my mom's car and my cousin's car, I got myself a RM20! Hehe,although its not much and damn so tired but I just felt so happy earning this with my own effort! Wednesday here I come!

This guy GouGou(which mean dogdog in English)from Taiwan add me in my Yahoo Messenger.I knew who he is,he is one of the member in my Princess Ruby Fans club(a Taiwan artist/author/radio DJ),so I accept his add.We did chat in the clubhouse signature but not often.

So we chat in YM just now(in Chinese),he ask me wether I listen to Ruby's radio programme today.I told him that I'm from Malaysia,I only can hear it online. Then,you know what he answer?!"Malaysian can type Chinese?hoho very advance." Hello,please la can you update yourself?Dont you know we have Chinese here too!Malaysian know Chinese even before you are born!(Hahaha I wish I answer him like this)

I dunno la why I so sentitive about people saying that we are not in the trend.

I suddenly have this feeling while I was enjoying singing in front of the desktop.I want to write,I want to write somethin,anything.I want to express something,but I dont know what is that something.Its like a desperation that you need to fulfill it instantly.So well, I just type anything pop up in my mind.

I want to eat hamburger,a huge one like the one in Burger king,Whopper double cheeseburger!Yes this is what I think right now,and obviously I am super hungry.But its after 8pm so its a no-no for me,so hamburger go away so that I can have Gisele Buchen hot body.

I want to sing in the Kbox,I want to sing all Eason Chan songs,his music is just so addicted,once you hear it will always playing in the brain and it never stop until you actually sing it out loud like what I did just 5 minutes ago.The feeling was so great after sing it with the volume full and follow the lyrics and rythm and sing like a superstar.

This weekend I'm going to Mimpian Jadi resort for a stay with my Sharon,Sheena,Jenifar,Vera and Joanna.I'm gonna do the swim,the horse ride,the fishing,the picnic,owh owh and we gonna have a steamboat in ther esort room too,and cakes because Sheena birthday is around the corner.

Cakes! Yes Cakes!! I'm so wanna eat cakes,I want cake with cream...arghhhhh delicioussss,I want chocolate cream cake,I want blueberry cream cake,I want cakes!Cupcakes!Cupcakes!Cheesecakes!Cheesecakes!!!!!

I love reading!!I love story that is true and really did happen especially it was happen long long time ago.Recently just finish Chinese Cinderela:A story of unwanted daughter,altho I complaint about the way the author write the novel but I love the storyline so much!Currently am reading My Story:Lim Goh Tong,an inspiring book,to those who want to be a succesfull entrepreunership you must have this book.Who is Lim Goh Tong?He is the creator/owner of Genting Highland!!See how succesfull he is!So this book must read.I borrowed it from my uncle,he bought it during our trip to Genting,my dad finish that book from the KL sentral Bus stand till the AirAsia Airport in KK,see how far is it hahahaha.I want more boooooooks to read,I'm addicted to reading!

I am so hungry,therefore,I'm going to sleep.Why?Because today end ealier so that tomorrow come earlier and I can have my food earlier,see what I mean,I'm hungry.Goodnite Tuesday.

Today is the twenty-second year of my life aka my birthday. A birthday,it suppose to have a crazy party with a bunch of friends,or an expensive dinner with buddies or at least dinner outside right?Nope,I was hoping for that,but non of those happen.So,what came up is....

Morning,7.00am,woke up by the noisy short-message-system aka SMS ringer, it was from Vera,wishing me a happy birthday,also from Jacynthea and Jenifar which they send it midnight but I slept early last night. I was disappointed, I only receive six birthday sms greetings,I was hoping for more,but........nevermind.
I was thinking of having a tasty breakfast at the town with my dad,but right after I open my room door,I heard his heavy snoring sound,still sleeping....I wait and wait and wait...its 9am he is still sleeping.So okay I give up,I make myself a sandwich and coffee and head to the computer for Japanese anime-GhostHunt.After watching two episode,I went and play with the playstation,still hoping for a call or a sms.
I have instant noodle for my lunch, I was thinking of having lunch with anybody,but my dad use the car,huh.After lunch,chat for awhile with Sharon and head myself to bed for a afternoon nap.I had a nightmare on my BIRTHDAY!!Geez..I dreamt I have been push by the strong wind when I was on my bed sleeping,and I cant move.Then I woke up,realise it was a bad dream.
Have some times with the playstation again and went downstair playing chase with Sherpy, our new Doberman+German Sherphard.He is so huge,he can be as tall as me when he stand,his mouth is big and aloud to finish a bun in one mounth.
4.00PM, accompany my cousin to the Eternity bridal shop in Likas.She bring me for my consultant on the bridal gown,geeez..what an honour.Almost all of her gowns are based on my comments,but that shop is suck,they have so less choices to pick and design is uh-ma-God.I just dunno why she pick that shop, nevermind,it was not my wedding anyway.I learn something today,I understand what cutting match what body figure,and I got to know that BIG SIZE WEDDING GOWN is damn euwwww..I mean what they got in that shop was euw.
So,was hoping for a birthday dinner from my family....but I end up eating can food.NON OF THEM remember my birthday,I was so pissed off!!I went in my dad bedroom and shack hand with him and I said HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME,then I went back to my room and locked myself up.Almost cry,but still struggling.
I watch movie in my room,I watch 'Bridge To Terabithia',It was a wonderfull movie,I cried so hard when the girl Leslie died,the graphic was great.Then daddy knocked my door and greet me with a red packet.I said thank you and I close the door,I still mad.Then Mom knocked the door and greet me and tell me that we gonna have breakfast together tommorow.
And now I was here typing to share the day of my 22nd years of my life.I was still very unhappy, because I hope for a miracle,but miracle never come.Goodnite Friday.

This is fun.

Exam is around the corner, and yet I'm still loittering around wasting my time.This is me, always do things last minute,I only can squeeze out solution or idea in the peak time.5 asignments come together,I thought I'm dead meat this time,I only have like two weeks to round it up,but mwahaha kinda proud of myself,I did it,I finished it up all,and I even faster then my others group member*smudge*!

I have my english presentation and interview last Friday.I'm so happy that everything went just perfect.I have my presentation in the morning,normally during presentation,I'm nervous,my body shake uncontrolable,and went blank.But this time,I didnt!Yes I finally cope with my weakness!What I did is I practice in front the mirror,just like what The Sims did,and its really works!

About the interview,I was not ready,I didnt do any practices at all,I decide to make the interview last minute.Wala..I did it well again,haha! I'm happy when Mr.Mowbray the Australian lecturer commend me,he said I look confident and I speak very well with my english.Unfortunately I got less mark then what I expecting because of the error in my resume and application letter,but its ok, the compliment is enough to make my day,hahaha.

Urgh!!! I cant hardly wait for my holidays!!I'm so miss the freedom! 2 more weeks to go!! I can do it!!
Hey Mich! I thought you were coming back on the November,where were you?You have been away from the blog world quite long.
Hey Cynth!Good luck on your exam!Later,We make cupcakes ya!

As I was waiting for the clock tickling to 1pm,I flipped the May 2006 Reader's Digest, and found this quote by Thomas L. Friedman in Wired {My parents told me,"Finish your dinner.People in India and China are starving."I tell my daughters"Finish your homework.People in India and China are starving for your job."}

Its moved me.Since I have 3 more hours to class.I better get my homework done!There is lots to do and the due date is almost here!

When God ask you to pick a place to live before you were born,where would you choose?

Not Malaysia,NotAmerica,Not Australia,Not England,Not China,but Canada.

Why?

Canada is a place that not so famous among people,they rather pick America,Australia or England as their choice.

I like Canada because-

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Seasons is one of the point.I want to get the feeling of being in spring,in summer,in autumn and in winter.Life is so boring when you only got one season through out the years.

The politics in Canada shown not so obvious to the world,which mean there is no serious politics issues.A place without serious controversion is a peaceful place.

Well,I'm not sure about the economics in Canada.If there is no problem in finding food,I guess the economics is not in bad condition.Come on, whats more important than food,hahaha!

Natural disaster.What scary natural disaster you ever heard happen in Canada,please tell me.

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Just because Canada has being very peaceful,so there is no rather much of happening and excitement or challenging to do.Its too boring for a person like me.

SO,

I'm still grateful to born in Sabah.Although Sabah still not in its best time,I'm consider it as a new place that just started to grow,and I'm expecting it would soon be a tremendous place in few years come.

Sabah has a very good potential in every sectors.We have good soils that able to produce world class products,we have good environment to catch the world's eye,we have lots of land need to be discover,all these can become a good source to lead to economic boom,but if only we have the initiative to bring it up.

I'm grateful because Sabah still has a lot of opportunity for me to discover.Maybe before I was born,I've already predict that Sabah has it abilities and possiblities to become a new world's attention.

Pictures are so amazing.Some people might look very ordinary in reality,but not in pictures,it shows the different you that you yourself might not realise it.Pictures...does it shows the real us? Maybe.


~Country~


~Sunny~


~Sweet~


~Cool~